I didn’t mean for the title to refer to two great things. Happy accident!
I have finally reached an organization that wishes to assist me. They had me speak with three different departments which could provide assistance to me in the areas of housing, home care aide and case management. This is huge! Nothing is going to happen overnight, but they feel the urgency and after just speaking with them yesterday, I’ve received forms to start on, numbers to call and a promise for a check in once they have some of the initial steps done. I’ve already followed up in all the ways they told me to and I feel enouragred. Things are looking up.
To top it off, my “other parents” who live in Philadelphia are coming up to Long Island in a few weeks to stay for three days. I’ve missed them so very much, but they have plans for work. To get me a home and find the things I need that I have been hitting dead ends on. They booked a hotel suite and I’ll stay with them to optimize our time together. It means the world to me to have people, of no official relation to me care so much. They truly love me and I them. I say this to my dearest friends all the time, but G-d truly did provide for me a family, just not in the conventional sense.
I haven’t felt this confident that I’d have a safe and accessible home before. I’m staying cautiously optimistic because looking back, I’ve had other things seem promising just to have them fall through or even set me back! The difference now is that I have the right people with the right resources and the best of intentions all in one. If Marc, Rhonda or Susan read this, I know you told me not to thank you yet, but I have to express my appreciation. You have no idea what I’ve been through up until now and I finally feel hopeful.
It has been over 2 years in the making, but the journey has just begun. It can’t be coincidence that I’ve been receiving a lot of guidance from HaShem in the past few weeks. I feel a sense of peace I’ve never had before. I also felt compelled to cover my hair all the time, not just for prayer, shabbat, etc. You know how I mentioned I had a direct hit to my self-worth a little while back? It’s gone. With the approval of a few trusted rabbis, I now wear mitpachat/tichel and I’ve never felt more connected through a mitzvah, so comfortable and secure and just more like myself. I know it’s not for everyone, but I’m embracing it fully and it feels natural to me. It’s admittedly practical as well, because I’ve been experiencing hair loss due to anemia.
It has been a time of big change and for the first time in a long time, I’m excited for the future!